4 -3- 09 ..unforgetable day

My quench to swallow some of my life memories will never be fullfilled despite of the fact of boredom issued.I know its a foul exuberant of mine to key them in a comprehensive fable but still I'm use to it.

i 'm not brave..

Date:4th march 2009

I forge the day to the one of my most unforgetable day i lived.4th march 2009 was the thing which means and meant a lot to me even today.It unfolds the flake of my time to a little extent.

After having a haste in intervene the day started off.So 4th march 2009 was the day i for the first time gave my board exam.It was a strange feeling with a pinch of sacrasm.We had a SOCIAL SCIENCE exam that day.

Now concluding to my bad history over some devious civics can muddle to a poor geography.I liked economics because it made me aware of the consumer rights and sustainable development of India which is now presently in rampant.

..I was not a guy like Sandeep.(He was the master of sst and still one of my dear friend).I was a guy who never scored a 42+ in social though i dont regret the fact today also.Social was the only subject in my skool life which left me wid nightmares.I never had a feeling to study the subject may be due to my lack of attention on studies.But still i was left with no option rather to taste it.

Worries desipated me about my socail future too..

now coming back to 4th march :

i gave up 10 days before 4th march to stuff my head with some poison.But i was not confident enough to ink the day's exam.I was tempted with fear,heartbeats and sagacity.Mum's words were not enough to cure them.Few hours before the exam my pancreas secreted a stream line of anderanaline..which speared my intestines and moved like a mexican wave within my body.I was not ready to jingle on this wave and was not prepared to have a grief revision that hour.

I thaught some kind off music can heal me.I took my mum's cell and played....

the song was hallowed be thy name....that was the first time i ever listened to some legendary soul of heavy metal.Iron Maiden were gothic.the next song i listened was by Metallica-the unnamed feelings.they become my favourite on the heavy metal part.It never happened to me that i loved any song for the first strike.Iron Maiden and Metallica were awesome !!

i heard them for more than hour.I will never be able to forget my reactions of that hour of my crazy decision.

74 mins later...

I broke the seal of the question paper...gave a glance...Everything appeared was easy...

after about 4 hours..SATISFIED

Mercury went to 36 on its scale....( i know it wished for something more)

I was at Mok's place discussing the day's excursion.

I was made aware of my negligence and forbidness...I lost 14 marks out of 80.(6 marks went on the unknitted map,4 marks on the picture based question and 4 marks on the theory question which i havent atempted).that were my calculations apart from my unoticed negligence.i hadnt spoked even a word about that with my family ones that day..I was left with nothing but with a bad and a cripple start for my board exams.I thaught to hook up wonders on the remaining ones.I even thaught to become a monk and steal someones ferrari...but

i was pissed off....

and the rest is HISHTREE...i scored a 94 in that exam (:p)

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That 4th march 2009 meant a lot to me..Its the most unforgetable day of my life.A gear to my past predicaments or my fortune.It was a kind of restoration which gave me a real soul for heavy metal and a wisdom to note a junk out of a jack.I was left with nothing but with luck

I know it looks apalled on my part to write something stupid or idiotic here.I also know that u wud take a stupified out of me,curse me or mock on me....

if u do...

F*CK U.....i dont care!! (i know i'm rude)

Self-fulfilling prophecy..!

I found that listening to the news or watching it on a daily basis was a negative influence on my life. It was actually influencing my outlook on life.
Like an AIRCEL ad- Only 1411 tigers are left in India..Count not increasing.What does that mean?May be the male tigers are either using contraceptives or the female tigers using Unmwanted pills.Or people in Bangladesh still abusing in the name of Taslima Nasreen.
Well those perceptions that we allow ourselves then,are those that are consistent with our expectations and attitudes.

Life reflecting and pouring tonnes of problems in the day can be in the form of our forgetness,forgiveness,faithfulness and failurness.It goes sky when a problem grows polar and regret the blame of an archive.Quitter can be one thin jinx taken fore granted.Having something for the other which cannot be explained and expressed can be an another quitter.Now reminiscing the thaughts of my 16 yr life experience fetch me something very interesting about the parcels of my opposite sex.(i'm a male and a straight by orientation)

***Like

"A female gal has a close male friend.Its been a long time that they are together (as friends).Quite astonishingly it means that he is probably interested in her, 'that' is why he hangs around her so much.But like every gal she sees him strictly as a friend even they hang on a same ride.This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic."

And then the boy getting rejected glazes for vengance.He rains the gal (who is his friend or not still remains a riddle) with questions.Like why,why and why,???Tries every niche to flaunt the gal but fails at every edge!

And at last the boy quits in regret and rigour....Riguor because the next day he finds a new one...


Concluded that,gals see what they expect to see, experience what they expect to experience, and achieve what they expect to achieve.

Therefore, when we expect to fail, this often becomes a "self-fulfilling prophecy".

MORTIFIED

A visible hello can make him feel embarrass by the fact of rapid knowingness.It holds true for a Mortified.He wakes up after having a haste.He had a dream for his truth.A truth which bites him to his core.His blood boozes for rage.Guilt provokes for a defined word of imaginary instant.The truth behind his karizma and karma.

the day he felt the breeze for the first,he asked a reason for it......



He had clutched success in every phase of his defined life.A hard working by profession have strived for everything even for a nutshell.Being silent to the point of being a mass of negligible enthusiasm and randomness have been traits of his personality.The reason behind to feel like a mortified is he never had any.An apogee of wisdom is needed to be defined.A diverse unit of knowlege but not even a chunk cud be reasoned.Got throat full of solutions more than a sputum.But the throat is never coughed out;becuase its sneezed out by a random EXCUSE.. The excuse cripples him in every dimension.He is a mocking bird of his class who flies with the broken wings.His presence in the room is avoidable.He is avoided even by the girl of his dreams who might be sitting next to him.The girl is the only mesmerising thing of his life;but his decibels and hard to strike her.Even his teachers,parents are worried about his so called known behaviour.He is redempted to be such a foolish maniac who got jugs of knowledge.He feel desparely appalled for his worthless success(which remains a mystery or a myth).The trauma haunts him to(o) his roots.The initial torture of giving up things weighs against any justification that couldn’t fetch him anything worthwhile.He awaits for the reasons of being such a MORTIFIED...



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• MORTIFIED (adjective)
The adjective MORTIFIED has 2 senses:
1. suffering from tissue death
2. made to feel uncomfortable because of shame or wounded pride
Familiarity information: MORTIFIED used as an adjective is rare.